Last night, I ended up sleeping on our couch because I was so tired. My sister who got home in the middle of the night, loves to watch movies and that she did. Unfortunately, she chose to watch The Avengers. The noise and bass made me toss and turn until I couldn't bear it any longer and was wide awake under the covers. My sister didn't notice me because she was enjoying the movie.
I vividly remember this strong force in me to not say a thing and just go inside the bedroom and continue my disrupted sleep there. But the rotten attitude in me wanted to punish her with guilt by telling her accusingly what she put me through.
And so I did. I told her. In an petulant and harsh manner because I was all ticked off.
It set off an air of animosity on an early Monday morning. I ate my breakfast in silence and she prepared for bed in silence too.
After I finished my breakfast, I put on my favorite series of all time, Scrubs, and was struck by the episode I randomly chose.
The episode was about four people who did something nice but had to pay for it.
1. JD asked his best friend Turk to spend time with him on Turk's day off. Because of that Turk was not able to finish his pile of work he usually finishes on his off.
2. Cox who enjoys being feared by his subordinates makes his wife happy by going out on a couple's date with an intern. This intern told his fellow interns about that night and how Cox was forced to be in a conversation with him. When Cox shows up at work the following day, the interns no longer fear him, and even boldly try to be in a conversation with him.
3. Carla runs interference for her boss whose dog died. Her tough boss did not want his staff to see him this vulnerable so Carla was tasked to talk to people on his behalf. Unfortunately, his boss hardly said yes to any of the requests of his staff. So Carla spent the whole day rejecting requests. When she took a lunch break and sat with her colleagues, they all stood up and moved to another table. They all hated her.
In the middle of the episode, the narrator asked, "Was it worth it?"
This was answered by the fourth person in the story. He donated half of his liver to his brother who was sick but it almost cost him his life.
On the morning after the surgery, his surgeon visited him and asked:
Turk: Did your brother freak out when you told him you almost died?
Patient: I didn't tell Frank. Look at him so happy. If he knew what I went through he'd feel terrible. Why would I wanna do that when I love him so much.
Needless to say, after watching the episode it reminded me of the incident with my sister this morning. It made me realize that sometimes keeping it to yourself is more loving than some acts of kindness. It's a small form of sacrifice.
My rotten attitude stinks like hell and I wish I could get rid of it so I could be more loving because I want my life to be God-glorifying. In Jesus, I never, ever feel God accusing me of my wrong attitude. Instead, I feel His fatherly love wanting to fix all the bad gunk in my heart. All I need to do is approach the Throne of grace because no matter how I try, I will never defeat the sinful nature in me on my own.
I vividly remember this strong force in me to not say a thing and just go inside the bedroom and continue my disrupted sleep there. But the rotten attitude in me wanted to punish her with guilt by telling her accusingly what she put me through.
And so I did. I told her. In an petulant and harsh manner because I was all ticked off.
It set off an air of animosity on an early Monday morning. I ate my breakfast in silence and she prepared for bed in silence too.
After I finished my breakfast, I put on my favorite series of all time, Scrubs, and was struck by the episode I randomly chose.
The episode was about four people who did something nice but had to pay for it.
1. JD asked his best friend Turk to spend time with him on Turk's day off. Because of that Turk was not able to finish his pile of work he usually finishes on his off.
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2. Cox who enjoys being feared by his subordinates makes his wife happy by going out on a couple's date with an intern. This intern told his fellow interns about that night and how Cox was forced to be in a conversation with him. When Cox shows up at work the following day, the interns no longer fear him, and even boldly try to be in a conversation with him.
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3. Carla runs interference for her boss whose dog died. Her tough boss did not want his staff to see him this vulnerable so Carla was tasked to talk to people on his behalf. Unfortunately, his boss hardly said yes to any of the requests of his staff. So Carla spent the whole day rejecting requests. When she took a lunch break and sat with her colleagues, they all stood up and moved to another table. They all hated her.
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In the middle of the episode, the narrator asked, "Was it worth it?"
This was answered by the fourth person in the story. He donated half of his liver to his brother who was sick but it almost cost him his life.
On the morning after the surgery, his surgeon visited him and asked:
Turk: Did your brother freak out when you told him you almost died?
Patient: I didn't tell Frank. Look at him so happy. If he knew what I went through he'd feel terrible. Why would I wanna do that when I love him so much.
Needless to say, after watching the episode it reminded me of the incident with my sister this morning. It made me realize that sometimes keeping it to yourself is more loving than some acts of kindness. It's a small form of sacrifice.
My rotten attitude stinks like hell and I wish I could get rid of it so I could be more loving because I want my life to be God-glorifying. In Jesus, I never, ever feel God accusing me of my wrong attitude. Instead, I feel His fatherly love wanting to fix all the bad gunk in my heart. All I need to do is approach the Throne of grace because no matter how I try, I will never defeat the sinful nature in me on my own.
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